New Capsha

[Capsha]

Hi everyone. I've not posted something in a while, so here goes.

The last couple months my lioness side has felt like only half of who I am. After dreams, meditating and a few mental shifts I realized that being a white African Lion wasn't all that I am.

Let me explain what I "really" am:
Imagine a creature the same size and shape as a lioness. Imagine her with velvet feeling black fur except from on her face, feet and ribs. You can see her bones there. On her neck are black, shiny scales and on her wings there are black scales too. Her tail is long and like a lions.

This is me. My white lioness is a form- my main form. But I can shift into this creature because I am a demonkin. I'm an Ethereal Lion poly-kin to be exact.

I remember some memories of my demon life and hope to show you a pic of myself shortly.

Hope you still want me, even though I'm not really a lioness :/ and sorry for keeping this from you for so long.

Cap x

[Capsha]

Saber, thanks for opening up and sharing with us

Your type sounds really interesting to be honest! It could quite possibly be that you're not from earth (ethereal) and from another planet/realm whatever. I know I'm not from earth although I'm still working out where I'm from. I highly doubt that it's a planet from our solar system though.

Also, can I give drawing your type a go? It'll probably be totally wrong but I wanna try and imagine you as best I can

Cap x

[Capsha]

Yeah of course you can draw me !

As for the memories, there are 2 types that I've been getting: my setting dreams and my "me" dreams. Sorry if that doesn't make sense, let me explain...

Setting dreams:
I see where I lived. I can tell it's not earth because in the forest there are blue trees, grass and plants. Everything is, literally, blue. It's like a frost that covers the land, it comes in winter and spring (in that world) and turns the world blue. I also see my den, it's like a cave but dug into the earth and filled with soft stuff, almost like hay. It's not hay, but that's what I can describe it as best.

My "me" dreams are like dream shifting. It's when I see myself living as that creature. I remember the most strong memory is of me returning from somewhere, possibly hunting or something, and going home to my mate. He was the same as me, but his wings were more dragon like and he was grey, not back. His eyes were blue balls, not red like mine. The rest of the dream is pretty fuzzy, but as time goes on I'm remembering more, so I'll possibly be keeping you all updated.

Hope this gives you an idea, Saber.

Cap x

[Capsha]

Hey up, just wanted to "update" you all again, even though what I've found out isn't much I'm afraid.

My wings weren't used for flying, but we used them to make ourselves look more intimidating to prey, enemies whatever. Also we seem to be a hybrid of something, but I'm not sure what. And I know we shared this planet with huge lizard things... I'm sure people here would call them dragons, but that's not exactly what they were on my planet.

Anyway... *shrugs*

Cap x

[Saber]

I'm deleting my posts becose now I really Really feel unshure ... I feel like an earth animal... Still unshure of which ... I'm sorry , but I'm unsure of being otherkin alien , but I cant say I'm not ... So please for now Until I sort this thing out , just adress me as a werecat , a feline ...

Anyway , I wish you luck Capsha on finding more about yourself ...

See you soon ... Take care ...

Saber X

[Capsha]

Saber, it's absolutely fine

I hope you figer out "who you are" soon, it seems like it's stressing you out a bit...?

Cap x

[Saber]

I think i might have had a vision of my therioside , or something ethereal , it would be , well from what ive heard demonkin can be black mist beings , in my vision it might have looked abit like a misty feline-like (almost smilodon/lynx like) with a squeleton central beneath the mist , and with articulations and we could see the interior (no internal organs , bones! , mist...)...

[Capsha]

Saber, glad you're finally getting some clarity! Deomkin (are usually) shifters, so it could be that you're shifting from one thing to another, as well as having a "primary" form.

Cap x