Re: Theriantrope questions and depression

[Saber]

I'm making this topic because I know theriantrope can be very confusing at times its incredible ! lol , and I have been updating on you guys for what came/comes up in my searching , this is in roaring ground because this searching seriously pisses me off at times , and in the past I was depressed in my searching and this seemed to mess everything up even more , so I keep on searching and my smilodon doughts and confusion still come in mind ... and doughts come as they go and end up in frustration .

Questions and questions come in mind ... I often felt/feel lost , but I think i might be on my way to victory soon ....

I apreaciate suggestions and stories in responce to this probleme .

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(this is not the original post I fear , I modified this and deleted some because I have grown much more mature and comprehensive of my experiences from the time which I wrote this topic , I was quite young and was still very confuse , at this time my beliefs led me toward smilodon , but now , with cougar , doughts still follow me down ... and to add to why I deleted some of my posts , when I first wrote some I was going trough a hard preadolescence phase and even had some depressive behavior that might show here . I read upon it now ... about 2-3 years ago I was 11 or 12 years old and know am 14 almost 15 , and find my previous ''behavior'' uncomfortable to read to compare to mine of this day , in all do respect , please do not object to this , and thank you all for your previous replies ...) Sincerely Saber .

[wildcat]

I think many of us go through times of thinking our theriotype may be something different to what we have thought before. First I thought I was a domesticated cat, then a smilodon , then a tiger. But then I learn't about Wildcats and everything changed. I then thought I was some kind of wildcat therian. In February we went to the Highland Wildlife Park, and I s[end an hour next to the wildcat enclosure. The biggest, leader cat Hamish came over to look at me and was very polite and friendly. I slowly closed my eyes and when opened them again he was doing the same. It made me so happy!!! Usually wildcats are extremely aggressive. With these cats I felt completley equal, as though they were family. It was at that moment I knew I was a Scottish wildcat therian.

Well, thats my experiance. It would be very difficult for you, however, as you probably could never meet a smilodon .
Maybe you should really reflect on it, or do something like soul searching.

And yes, in response to your first post, I've seen those videos too. It's terrible that people are allowed to be so blunt and angry about something the obviously don't know about. It can really get you down at times. I mean, everyone can have their own opinion of things, but ranting about it and making out if people beleive in something they are mad is just horrible. I saw someting on youtube called "I hate Otherkin" and was extremely distressed to see how aggressive people can get over another persons beleifs. They might not agree with them, but that is not the way to react. There were some nasty, even to the point of disturbing comments on the video by people who agreed.

Some people are just afraid of what they don't know or understand. There will always be people like this. People should have their own views. I know that some of the people I know think that therianthropy is a bit crazy, but thats just their views. At least they respect them and don't get all angry and aggressive and stick it on youtube for no reason!!!

Anyway, rant over . Good luck with finding your theriotype, I wish you all the best.

[Saber]

...Even trough my dought , smilodon always comes back to me...

...In tought about how i would feel if i could ever see a true living smilodon and feel its coat and look deep into his eyes ... I have to much feelings for the nature of this animal i think i would have tears of joy if i would ever have the chance to be face to face to it and pet it .... (no seriously right now i have tears to my eyes just tinking of it . )

So im staying with smilodon wright now....

[wildcat]

Thats so sad . I'd be devistated if my theriotype became extinct. Thats why i'm trtying so hard to make sure thhat doesn't happen.

It must be so hard for you.

[ghostwind]

Those feelings will pass, friend.

If you are feline it will always come forward.

Sometimes it hides, just like a cat.

I'm 51 and it will get better as you explore yourself.

Best wishes.

[Capsha]

Saber, I went through exactly the same thing. You may not want to do this, but I took a break. I stopped meditating, coming on therian/otherkin sites, kinda pushed therianthropy to the back of my mind.

I can only really say that I know what you're going through, if you ever wanna talk or anything you can always PM me.

Hope you get stuff sorted,
Cap x

[bagheera]

It is entirely possible, although rare, that you could be both. If you believe in the reincarnation explanation you could have been a cougar in a later lifetime and a smilodon in an earlier one.
Most therians identify with a few species or sub species before truly knowing which they are, or their soul identifies with one while their spirit guide might be another. Just let it flow and eventually it will make sense.

[Saber]

Thank you ... Capsha , that's really nice of you ...

Thanks for the support ... I really apreciate it .
*sniff* *hug*

thanks .

[ghostwind]

bagheera and the others make valid points.

The feline tree, just on this planet, goes back 65 million years.

How many times have you walked the world as some prototype of the modern cat?

Certainly smilodon still walks the world. I can see her in my house cats and feel her rub against my dreams.

Nothing is ever lost...something about 9 lives, which really means eternal.

Today smilodon, tomorrow cougar--on the inside the same color: feline.

I'm not sure if I'm allowed to include a picture link but when I see this liger, I see smilodon.

www.maniacworld.com/liger.jpg

[Saber]

thats a good way to put it as ... the "blood" of our ancesters flows in our own ... I may not be by name but might be by history ...


And back to the reincarnation thing ... humm ... I have trouble really beliving in it myself ... but I do belive that a soul is Immortal like , well ... nevermind the "I dont belive in reincarnation" thing ... like my soul could be of a past smilodon , who is well reincarned in my human form , but befor that could be of diffrent other types of animals , wich could mayebe explain why I feel like I never find the right one ...

My soul Is "Looking" for It's rightfull form ... but since Smilodon is extinct , feels confused torwards other felines even tough yes they are all felines they arent exacly the same ...


What ? ... a theorie , lolz I even lost myself there ...

Just to say , Mayebe the reason that I feel like im not exacly like any of my "ideas" on my list of doughts , but still I dont see really no resemblences , Is probably becose (If reincarnation exists) my soul (mayebe the black mist feline thing I've been talking about) is , the bodom of it , is smilodon , as such when smilodon went extinct , my soul changed body (felines) to find the correct one , but smilodon was alredy gone ...



Okay , If you got mixed up in this , and confused and just plain wtf ? , I don't blame you , this is just a "theorie" i tought of and ends up to be confusing .

Sorry .

[Capsha]

Saber, I'm just throwing this out there... maybe you're a polyshifter?

It's good to keep that in mind. *nods*

Maybe, because you know that you're kintype is extinct you're worried about "not existing"? I know it's hard not being able to really know or connect with your type, but if you meditate you might be able to...? I'd be happy to help with that if you needed any pointers.

If you feel drawn to all felines then it is possible that you're a shifter, like I said earlier. And therianthropy is real, look at all of us, we're therians! Never doubt your kin side (unless you genuinely believe you can physically shift and such like) if you don't think that then you're a "real" therian.

If you wanna know anything, don't be afraid to ask.

Cap x

[Saber]

Aug 15, 2010 15:21:25 GMT -5 Capsha said:

Saber, I'm just throwing this out there... maybe you're a polyshifter?

It's good to keep that in mind. *nods*

Maybe, because you know that you're kin type is extinct you're worried about "not existing"? I know it's hard not being able to really know or connect with your type, but if you meditate you might be able to...? I'd be happy to help with that if you needed any pointers.

If you feel drawn to all felines then it is possible that you're a shifter, like I said earlier. And therianthropy is real, look at all of us, we're therians! Never doubt your kin side (unless you genuinely believe you can physically shift and such like) if you don't think that then you're a "real" therian.

If you wanna know anything, don't be afraid to ask.

Cap x

...that Is possible , I'll let that settle and try to see if things work out . Thank you for the suggestion Cap .

[Capsha]

Saber, it's no problem to help anyone! I'm happy that you think you've found a way to sort this! And I just know the basics lol, but thanks for that, it's nice to be appreciated.

Again, goodluck and don't be afraid to ask anything,

Cap x

[Saber]

Wow ... Just found out another feline on my list Pallas cat ... Well could explain why I like cold weather , tough I was a lynx (a while back) , feel a medium sized tail (well at least more than smilodon , actually ) , why I can see links between Manul (Pallas cat) and Smilodon to physical characteristics ... I can fairly relate to the cats behavior ... Anyway ... Gonna keep researching about the species ... Try to find more info ...

(Oh and ps : I'm not saying I'm not smilodon , or a poly-were ... I'm just trying to find an other cat that well , haven't really taught of that could be my theriantrope ...)



Oh god ... Its probably one of the puffiest cats I have ever seen in my life , check this :

img3.visualizeus.com/thumbs/09/02/03/cat,manul,manul,therapy-a5b528d2cded2646b854a83ec58c78a5_h.jpg
ha ha ... lol ( Tough they aren't always that puffy ... still they have thick fur ... I don't think they really are ''fat'' , from what I've herd is basically that they have a stoky built and a tick winter adapted coat .) still lol ... And I might be one ROFL ... Well I'm guessing the fur is the reason why I like wearing Hoddies so much (when Its like in summer , but I'm still like really hot) I just like the feeling of it lol , I already bought like 3 winter fur coats (its fake fur don't worry ... I wouldn't have bought it EVER if it where real) ..
And I cant wait to ware them ... I sometimes keep them Inside at summer ( air conditioner) ...

lol , I guess that could be an other link ROFL ... Anyone else has this weird feeling that you want to where long sleeves and coats to the equivalent as if it would be fur lol ... I've been doing this for a long while without knowing why I did , I just love it .
I remember In like 3 grade I was waring this hoodie in summer and my teacher asked me ''aren't you hot , I mean its like 20 degrees out ?! '' ... lol .


(sorry for the long post ).


Any who , See ya . Saber

[Capsha]

goodluck!!

Cap x